In the past I never had major problems sleeping. About two and a half years ago I was in an accident that prompted nightmares and some serious sleeping issues that required some medication to help me sleep.
I have been able to recover from this accident in many ways and have overcome many hurdles along the way. But like many people who have lived the torments of PTSD I have re-occurring episodes of which I have absolutely no control of and no warning.
Lately it's been a struggle. I fall asleep just fine. I'm at peace and comfortable in my bed. Suddenly I'm awake, terrified, breathing heavily and sometime I'm in tears. I know that whatever it is I was dreaming woke me up. But I never remember what it is the dream was.
I write this now just to get it out. I'm awake, when less than two hours ago I was blissfully falling asleep. I'm frustrated. I'm angry. I'm scared. I'm exhausted. I feel defeated. Just one of the many terrors that pop into my life uninvited.
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